Waxing lyrical

As they are thinking of starting a family soon, my sister and brother-in-law have been looking more and more at the option to move back to Missouri. They are thinking of buying a house in Springfield, and a couple of months ago asked me about the possibility of living with them.

This past semester a desire has been growing in me to be nearer to my family. There is something very wrong about seeing my neice and nephew grow up in six month increments. I want to be near enough that I can just go to see them any random evening. Close enough that they can call me up to go babysit if they need me. I want to be the crazy uncle they actually know, not the one they see just twice a year.

There are a lot of other things to think about, too. Factors that complicate things and make decisions more difficult. Guess that's where trust comes in. I have a tendency to try to micro-manage things I cannot contol in my life, which backfires nicely and takes away a sense of peace.

I had a conversation last night with my sister that was really nice. As of late, my head has been very cluttered and confused, and she listened and helped me to put some pieces together. I realized some things that I think need to be done. Some of you know how confusing these past few months have been for me, so it was really good to sort some things out.

I posted some new writings that I wrote two months ago. Not much true literary value in them, but they capture some things for me that I never want to forget. They are a concrete etching of a memory buried beneath the tombstone of my past.

I head home on Friday back to Carl Junction. Perhaps some photos or poetry will emerge, but likely the best things will remain uncaptured.

Entry posted by byscuits on June 30, 2004 11:45 AM

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